*Tear* Stuck in place and I really just want to move forward, when will I get the break through I need cause Im really on the verge of breaking down...My work can only distract me for so long, at night reality hits and regardless how many numbers in my phone the only one I want to call is yours...Why am I so stuck on you? Why did you have to take my heart then move on to another? I deserve better I know I do but my life, my future, my family...I built it all around us...Now there is no us. How do I go back and reconstruct my whole life? How do I just pick up the pieces, move on, and rebuild. You say you want to be my friend but that hurts worse than you never speaking to me again...I tried time after time to move on and be happy but as soon as I see you my heart runs to you before my mind can stop it! I just wanted to love you and you love me, but what hurts worse than the fact that you no longer love me, the fact that I was good to you never did wrong by you and you threw what we had away because you felt as if you weren't ready to settle down and still wanted to play! Why can't I see that Im too good for you and that I didnt deserve the hurt you caused me but yet like a stupid puppy being kicked by its master I return to be hurt again...When will I learn that you will never truly love me and that my heart should no longer belong to you! When will I pick myself up from the pit of hell you cast me to, rebuild myself back to the beautiful person I used to be...No,better, and glue the pieces of my heart back in place ask God to heal the cracks cause my heart shouldn't even recognize your face and once again be whole live my life for me and know that whatever God has in store for me will come one day you weren't it just a lesson on what not to date and how not to let a bad situation break me and keep me broken...I dont even want to hate you because thats still giving you my attention, emotion, time, and energy and I no longer want you to have any part of me! I decided that today I am over you...Im done, lesson learned now time to get up, get myself together, and grow!
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